I always wanted to have twins. One pregnancy, one birth giving, one time of nappies and crying. One teething. Double fun and reward at the old age. I'd wanted to have twins a lot, but that was before I fell in love with my little prince.
This is what I am thinking. I love my little boy with all my heart. He gets 100% of love I am able to produce. So, if I had twins, would I be able to love them both the same? Where would the love for the second one come from? Would I have to share my 100% of love between them? Each baby could only get 50%. What if they were triplets? Do the portions get smaller? By the time we get to four, each baby is receiving only a quarter of what my little man is getting at the moment.
Unless, of course, I got it all wrong.
What if the equation is not division but multiplication? What if a Mother is able to love each of the babies as much as I love my single one. 100% of love per head. That would mean a set of twins would get 200% of love. 300% if there were triplets. This is twice/three times as much as I love my baby now.
Suddenly my 100% of love seems somehow… insignificant.
In comparison to twins, who get 100% of love each, the love I am giving to my baby is only 50%. It is even less with triplets and, by the time we get to four babies, my love is only 25% of what their mother is able to produce. This means I could actually be loving my baby 4 times more.
Could I double the 50% of love my baby is getting, compared to a set of twins, to make it a 100%? And then, if I had twins, would I have to share the new 100% between them? Or will I be producing the bigger 100% for each baby? In which case I am back to a bigger and better 200% per the set of twins.
And so the story goes...
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